Assalamualaikum and Good day.
I dunno. Lately these days, I felt uncomfortable with myself. Keep blurring all the time. Am I a true thinker? or soo critical thinker? haha. I wonder why?huh. Am I already in a state of psycholigical illness? Urgh! I hope not. Given lots of choices in life keeps me wondering, which is the best that suits me?
Am I too picky? Given a wonderful opportunity, but simply abuse it. I don't know. When a good deal comes to me, it occurs at a wrong time. When I have no intention in pouring my care. When I know where my sacred place turned to. Illusion never change into something real. duh. I know that. I know I might make the same mistake again and again. Yerp. How disgusting, when you know it will be wrong but then you still ran towards it. Why???
Is heart is truth in telling all?? Can I believe it? Can you?? Please someone tell me. To keep me in faith. huk2. Or is this some kinda of test for me in enduring such a complicated life??? WAa..
I've been too protective of the sacred place. I build a hard wall but it begins to tumbling down. Yet, when I'm ready to break the barrier, am I taking the right step? I want to keep it all screw up deep down. Being private is what I choose right now. Even when I am happy nor sad, I try to keep it to myself. Experience do teach me various lesson. I'm all out of faith in this matter!!
Being happy seeing others just keep me going and cement self content in me. I hope I could see a pillar of light being spotlight on me. Please. I hope the spotlight will follow me wherever I go. haha. I dunno what I am crapping all around. erk. But then, I still and will always seek for the guidance of Allah, may my this so called mental illness will fade away! hahaha.
Hmm, enough spitting words. Got to get to work. Just to make sure my blog is not in a state of lonelisome. Urghh. I am disgust with this kinda weird feel circulating around me. Burden eyh!! Like the women above being stonehage. Despite that, life move on ya know.
wAa make dis all flew away! YesS! I know! I'm gonna smash my face to the screen!! hak3
This do CreeP me ouT!
Roger n Out!
2 comments:
Don't mess urself. Just do check and balance for ur decision. believe on ur instinct don't make you better, and so if you don't believe it at all.
keep in mind that there are always be some choices to be made. There are lots of junctions that need to be taken. but, it's important that to know how will you face all possibilities that have to be solved later. and, if you fail, just make sure that u make a new path to your destination.
there are no good or bad selection, but how good you make yourself consistent on your intention, it would be better.
All roads will bring you to different destinations, but if u find that u r in a wrong destination, just make a new path to your destination.
p/s: this method is suits for major kind of problems, not included love (kind of bf/gf) problems.
Thanx for ur advice.
When we already pick the path, i dunno if we can ever go back.What's left is just the road that we have taken.
I am just curious. Sometimes we are given some sort of hunch. They say that we should believe the first hunch.However, if we proceed with the second hunch I guess there's probability that it is the wrong hunch.huhu.
Like most english say, listen to your heart.lalala
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