Finalllllllllllllyyyyyy!!

:: What's the best option for me to shoot for logical answers eh?::

Assalamualaikum and Good day.

Yeehaa! Finally the long awaited day has finally over. Pheww.. Glad that it's ended though. But then, I am scared to death about the results. Flying colours? Nahh.. It's far from reality. haha. Why? I didn't make it too well on the last 2 papers if compared to the 1st two papers.

Total = 4 papers . Total good points = very best + average. Total lose= 2+0. You count it. It's disaster! huhu. I just pray to God and really in a 'tawakal' mode actually. I have tried to do not my very best, but my best for the finals. I just hope that rezeki are on my side. I kept in positive thinking as this is far from my best shot, but I leave it all to Allah. *inside monolog* geez, so positive.



Yeah. I am still training to be positive minded and confident type of person.

Lord, do help me!

I can't blame the nature for being this negative minded person. It's in the blood. But at least, I am grateful that I am not an alien, an insects or mad hatter. Alhamdulillah.

Although sometimes I can be a nerve wrecking negative minded person, I am now a tolerate person. Thank you to everyone that understand my nature. That accept my weaknesses of being a negative minded person. It doesn't mean that when I think negatively on a person, I will kutuks or saying bad stuff towards someone. It just takes temporary of time for me to think that and I quickly rub it off. It is because I know that people do make mistakes and there will always be a room for improvement. People makes mistakes, learn from it and also change. So, I accept their weaknesses as they are and come back to positive minded. As easy as that.

If I am a so negative minded person, I won't befriend with people that have attitude problems. I befriend with everyone because I know not everyone is bad. Everyone has their beautiful icing inside of them. There will always be good beneath the bad, and bad beneath the good. As I say, not everyone is perfect. We always have an attitude problems. If not, what makes us a human? If we are too nice, are we an angel?? If we are too bad, are we Satan? No, no, no. We are in the middle. That what makes us human.

I can now slightly accept people negative attitude towards me. I won't comments anymore on others attitudes. Why? Because everyone is imperfect. :)

Whatever that they think about you will not change you. It doesn't matter, really. It is just how you accept things as they are. Yeah, we are all not perfect. There will be some flaws here and there. It is just up to us human to accept other people flaws. We are imperfect, but is is up to us to perfect the imperfection.

Yeah, we're as a human being have feelings too. I've felt all the feelings of hurt before. Yet. I am still patient with all of this. Almost all my friends have a question mark on their head thinking how would it be if Nadzirah angry eh?

::really hard headed baybeh.hee::

FYI, I am actually quite a hard headed and easy to pist off kinda of person. But that was way past back time. I've changed since I'm approaching my Creator, Allah. When? Good question. haha. When eh? It was all when I'm in standard 6. That's where I've started wearing scarf till now. Alhamdulillah I am still sticking to it. I'm totally a different person. Even my friends were not scared of me. Because I've become a very subtle and soft spoken person.

I don't know how to scold people now. I could only raise up my voice and cried. It is not that I am weak. It is just that, that's me. When I am too happy, too excited, laughed wholeheartedly, and whatever extreme emotion, I will cry. There will be a dam inside my eyes. Why I cried? Because I really dislike to scold people and scolding makes I feel bad about myself. Even Allah could forgive such people act. But me? A slave of HIM? I didn't have the level to judge a person. I just take this easy example from Lao Tzu as my life principle...

'Respond intelligently even to unintelligent treatment'

So, yeah. I've learned a lot from this phrase. That's my flaw, I honestly admit my weaknesses but people never know the fire desires inside me burning like hell. I can easily forgive but I will definitely never forget. Laugh all you could, say everything you want, throw me every sick word you got but....

In short for me,

He who laugh last, laugh best!

p/s- wait till the time come. I'm a strong girl and I'll prove it to ya'll one time! =)