It's been a week of soulless. Why? Well, of course because it's approaching the day back home! I'm so happy and excited because today will be my day. My day to go home. Finally! I can release any tension or emotional pressure that I've been dwelling this past few days. Alhamdulillah, things getting better. (^_^)
As you know, pouring your heart out when you have problems do lessen the feelings burden. If you know what I mean. After I told my good friends on my problems, it becomes better the next day. weird huh?
Why is my title past, present, future? It do holds several reasons. My past of being a very fragile girl will be in end. Past shows that I'm a girl who easily cried so much when I do have problems. Presently, I've only drops few tears! That's quite an amazing achievement for myself.
Being in so much situation has exposed to me what life is all about. I'm becoming a girl who heartless. But one thing about me is I really care about people around me. Too much. Before, I really would like people to do the same thing to me. But I guess it is better to give more than retrieving more. If you do care about a person, you really would care. But if people don't care about you anymore or throw you away from their life, what's worth of caring anymore?
I'm a silent type of person. Quite mysterious. Quite reserved type. I love to do things on my own. I honestly not a too social type of person. Although I tried to change the way I am but I need to accept that I am still like that and I have to accept it. But people always mistakenly took me as being snobbish. Actually, I'm NOT that type of person. I'm a person who doesn't talk too much but when it's like my crazy time, my closest friends do know that I talk WAY TOO MUCH.
I'm a really shy person. Not a high;y confident person. What I am today is all the things I worked out for past years. I build up my confidence. To be truth, During my days in standard 6 to form 5, I rarely talk to boys. I just talk when there is work. haha. Now? I'm okay with boys but still, I'm not a person from far away shouting HYEE EVERYONE! I wish that I have such courage to do that! haha
Being in a spotlight is everyone dream. I really would like people to pay attention to my presence. But people seldom know about my existence. But who knows what my future will hold for me. But I hope just one thing. I didn't forget who I am. I pray to Allah, that may I will always be a Muslim and die as a Muslim. Amin..
I just remmber three things
Past is EXPERIENCE, Present is EXPERIMENT and Future is EXPECTATION.
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