Heavy heavy..

It's been a while since I wrote on my blog...sorry for keeping all of you guys waiting..I just got back from ump to my home yesterday..quite a tiring journey you know...i got my feet on PUDU at 2pm something..so long..I depart from my u at about 10.30..sigh* anyway, i felt relieved that I finally release my stress by boughting a new clothes at quite a cheap price rather than usual! yiippie! really sweet green color cloth.not gonna show u guys..secret..hee~

I want to say thanx and send my gratitude to Nadiah and Nadia Arisha for 'susah2' come and pick me up at KTM subang..feel really grateful to them...thanx a lot guys..love you forever and eva! I'm not just go back home, we've lepaking at Subang Parade and meeting nadia boyfriend face to face..some sort of an introduction I guess..well, he's a nice person and I'm happy for nadia..I hope their relationship will last long till marriage..aminn :)

I've felt soulless these day...why? i don't know..I guess this Semester exam results I'm gonna drop till I drop!I don't know what's with me...I don't have any problem so far..but I've lost my fighting and studying spirit! Oh man, where the heck does it go? huhu..I miss the old nadzirah..who loves studying and being nerdy to score the best in her examination...I miss being number one in class..I miss all the moment where people look down on me and suddenly they are amazed by my performance..guess I need to find the old nadzirah..the one who loves to proves all that their perception on me is WRONG!

Also, I am sometimes HURT by word of sarcasm people said to me..but I used to just 'wat lek suda' emotion..I know I have my weaknesses as hamba Allah, as no one is perfect..I admit that I am a blur girl and I'm not good in calculation..but alhamdulillah, Allah give me advantages in languages..I can learn languages easily and score it..syukran..I believe everybody has their own gift..Also, I know that I always pretend that I am not hearing stuff but actually I heard..but I have build up a strong fortress to block all those words...but have you have to say something much of a word of disgrace to me?? saying that 'kita da cakap da tadi kan tapi die x dengar plak' and then the other saying the same things too..sambil making all those faceless emotion..you know..it's not good to blame other people as if you're a good enough listener..I am just keeping my silence as I bear in my mind that in firman Allah has said that the ones that leave an argument will receive an enormous benefit...so i keep hold on that.

Another is, I hate to ask question to seek knowledge when people who suppose to shared their knowledge but then will used the word sarcastically to me..saying words that 'Seriously, u need to always go to the library next sem, and why do you take Civil engineering?? Also, like saying others, why do people failed these subject?? Oh my..I am really mad with what that person said...Allah has given us kelebihan masing2....it's not right for us to use such words to people..we don't know if they have hardship in struggling for the subject...say to me...who likes to FAIL? but from failure is where we learn..from failure is where we raise UP and being motivated and even MORE SUCCESSFUL than a person whom doesn't ever failed..what do you guys felt when you are asking people for knowledge, and they ask u such question?? Believe me, rezeki Allah, rahsia Allah. Allah Maha Pemurah..

Maybe, sometimes, Allah test hambaNYA to make that person a greater person than before..you know..I will PROVE to these people that they are definitely wrong..Just wait and SEE! You will amazed with a new improved nadzirah. oh yeah! :D

Actually, I am really disgusted with person who likes to drain other people energy and spirit..Who are we to JUDGE people? Who are we to BLAME people? Who are we to MAKE FUN of other people? Who are we to jatuhkan HUKUMAN towards people??just sat a moment and think..are u too GREAT to say such word toward people...are u already PERFECT??

P/s- I am intimidated by these people..but I am patience and try to forgive and forget. Just keep in mind dear. Kata-kata adalah lebih TAJAM dari sebilah pedang..Maybe I've forgiven you guys for saying those words to me..but what about other people?? Do they easily forgive you???